flawed logic

conceal-carry is bullshit.


Im seriously afraid to leave my house, because if it passes the assembly, unless the venue or buisness has a no gun policy AND ENFORCES IT it is legal for the guy walking next to me to carry a gun that i dont know about. And when kids are crossing the street to go to school and some idiot is carrying a gun and accidently fires it, people are going to get hurt.

People are going to die. Lets just make it legal to be a gangster. Lets just ring in the message loud and clear, "violence is the answer!" and "the only way to fight violence is with violence."

when are people going to get brains? guns on the street? thats a great example of a real no brainer.

Donald Miller was right. This nation is following Eminem. we're in trouble.

Warning: You might laugh until your abs are sore.

Ok so today after work I met my friend Christine to go study for our anatomy and physiology class. We decide to go to Borders by Grand Avenue Mall in my car. We park the car in the structure.

APPARENTLY borders isnt part of the mall. lol we pull up to the window to pay for parking, which is 50 cents if you bought something and the lady said "thatll be five bucks." we were like "Hey but we bought something!"

lady: "Borders isnt in the mall."
Us: "Do you take credit cards?"
lady:"No we dont have the machine."
Us: "uh...we dont have any money."
lady:"Youll have to go back into the mall, theres an atm. You can park right over there. I'll need to hold your driver's liscence."
Us: *laughing histerically*

So we managed to laugh ourselves back into the mall and buy something so we could get out of the garage. We walk back into the structure and hilarity ensues.

Us:*laughing histerically*
Stina: "Hey let's be all slick and walk through to the window. Here's the 50 cents to pay."
Christine:"This is fifty-five sense."
Stina: "She can keep the five sense for all our trouble."
Lady: "Five sense is your change. have a nice day ma'm."

Not to mention I missed church because of this whole fiasco. What a day!

This is what becomes of me being social. Its funny.

P.S. 3/3 on the first pre-lab chem quiz of the semester. Dont mess with me. I am determined to survive this course without major injury to my GPA.

For the record.

1) 8 AM on a tuesday is a crappy time to have chem lab.
2) Once again the TA does not speak english.
3) chem lab is a waste of time and brain cells.

Characters.

Over the break Ive sat down and watched all three LOTR movies.
Epics are an emotional thing to watch when it feels like you've been living one.
Something I realized is that there's a little bit of every character in everyone.
I realized this particularily at the end of the saga, with the phrase so fittingly applied "coming full circle." Some lines tugged at me.

Frodo:

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand, there is no going back?

Bilbo once told me his part in the tale would end, but each of us must come and go in the telling. Bilbo's part in the tale had ended. There would be no more journeys for him, save one.

The last pages, are for you Sam."

Life is just like this I thought. There are people constantly coming and going from our lives. Some leave abruptly, some fade away. Sometimes it is our turn, to be the faithful friend to finish the story, and other times it is we that need to be the ones to let go. Sometimes we are all of them at once. And in the end, we will all be Bilbo, coming full circle, being the beginning of the adventures and in a moment's passing embarking on the one that will be our last.

Casi Cielo

Brittney is great at unconditional positivety. Being with her is casi cielo. haha I am her leader but she sure leads me an aweful lot. She is my friend and i learn so much from her. her laughter fills the part of my mind where the thunder meets the sand and the waves roll up on the beach. We stargaze there together. when I am with her i feel very young, filled with an awe of God that is hard to find in the adult world that ive found myself caught up in as of late. Maybe thats my problem, i need to get out of there.

She has me convinced that I can still do good things. i have been trusted to love and let myself be loved by a little girl, far too young to understand the depths of sin, but wholly grown enough to display the all-surpassing power of God that heals the everpresent flaws in these jars of clay. there are others in my life that do this as well. I am blessed.

My aunt is a potter, and is teaching me the true nature of what jars of clay are like. If the clay is wet when you notice a flaw, usually the only thing to do is completely start over (if she, the master of her little studio, cant help me salvage it). If the flaw occurs during trimming, or footing the pot when it is pretty dry, the flaws have to be made into something else, but in the end it makes the pot more beautiful. If you miss the foot and gauge the pot you can make strips or ridges. That kind of thing. Even if the pot is completely smashed after it is dried it can always be ground up for grogg, and even that serves a very important function. Everypart of the clay is usable and transformable at any moment.

so thats what this is talking about...

2 Cor 4:7:
But We have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; persecuted but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

casi cielo. almost heaven.

Change is in the air.

You know...they say never get your haircut during a crisis...but Id rather have them do it than do it myself. lol and i think my mom would too.

You know what they say.

Siempre la dama de honor, nunca la novia.

3 before Im 20? that pretty much seals it. lol.

Capture the texture of the sky.

I have come to realize that water, is always clear. ALWAYS. (well generally, when its not polluted.) I knew it before, but now i realize it. I used to color water like it was always blue. but that automatically makes the sky always blue as well. Really the color of water is merely built of reflections of sky, and whatever else may be near by. The only way to distinguish it from the sky and surroundings is by capturing the texture of the sky, and in turn the water.

Let's capture the texture of the sky. cos that's one of those high-reaching goals thats never really done. one of those things that is always changing and impossible to know completely and yet is beautiful in its moments.

*sigh*

Who the hell am I?

I have no frickin clue.

Wisdom from Yoda.

In the vein of finding spiritual ideas in non-traditional places, Yoda has presented me with a little piece of a big big puzzle. (hey whatever happened to that puzzle! ;)

Im watching Revenge of the Sith for about the third time since i got it a few nights ago.

"The fear of loss is a path to the dark side.
Attatchment leads to jealousy, the shadow of greed that is.
Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose."

God thinks so too, I think. Or at least from what He's shown me. Attatchment, and more importantly the fear of loss, and fear in general is very controlling. This has manefested itself in my life in so many ways. I am learning. and getting some serious reprimands. LOL always getting yelled at. (well...metaphorically speaking. too bad the puppy face doesnt really work on God.)

Dont get me wrong, i dont mean its not ok to hurt when we lose something, but living in the fear of losing it, you cant really love whatever that is. because then love isnt freely given, its given out of control by fear. The fear of loss makes love about yourself, controlled by selfish ambitions.

Yeah, love freely--thats what unconditional positive regard must mean.

Got to admit its getting better, getting better all the time.

I went iceskating today. I discovered that that is a really good outdoor activity. Good balance of socializing and exercize. thats healthy. cos we all need a little unconditional positivity ;).