Music therapy.

It amazes me how I readily find comfort and encouragement in the songs and people of my past. There are many people that are returning to my life, and although they cannot see my scars (well aside from the nose)they have given me comfort and through them God has given me hope. Everything is changing fast, faster than I expected. My heart is changing every second.

True humility is what I want. Ive dealt with fake humility, on an extreme level that supressed pretty much any hope of confidence I ever had, but this is not real humility. Convincing myself that i am not good at anything is NOT humility. Humility is rooted in the recognition that we are good at something, or have something that somone else does not. Its what we do with that recognition that makes us humble. Its using that recognition to help other people, to give glory to God, and to NOT brag. If you think you arent good at anything, how can you do any of that?

Phil Joel is really after me.

He sees you down by the water line
Knows what your thinking all the time
He sees the rising of the waves
when the tide starts rolling in he lets you know its gonna be ok
He sees you dancin in the moonlight
his arms around you hold you tight
and if those clouds should start to break
He'll be standin out in the rain with you
I know its hard to believe he believes in you

God is wathing over you as always
You are love whatever you go through
Hes right beside you
Gos is watching over you as always
and if you think he'll ever leave you
you better think again.

Painted in the sky a rainbow to remind you
Nothing that is broken cannot be made new
he know s when you feel so far away
hes gonna keep the nightlight on
he's waiting there to recieve you.